Loving Ruckus

We had our moments when we didn’t get along.  He was a jealous creature and the fact that we had to share my mom’s love didn’t go well with him.  We’d argue and often had a battle of wills, but at the end of the day he would give me big sloppy kisses and all would be good.  As he got older and we spent more time together, I realized how valuable it was to have a friend who would never let you down, stay with you while you cried, give you unconditional love, and protect you through your scariest moments.

He has protected us in ways I never could imagine and now he’s gone.

At first I was pretty disappointed that I spent most of my birthday picking up after Ruckus every single time he got sick, but as I look at it, it was my last birthday with him, and I spent it taking care of the guy that’s taken care of all of us.  We spent our last week with Ruckus giving him tons of pills, injections, and IVs.  Ruckus and I didn’t get much sleep with his labored breathing and hacking and coughing.  I woke up every time I heard him hack, so I could relax him and rub him and hope that he would get some rest.  I spent a lot of time talking to my dog telling him things you don’t usually tell your dog, and he listened and stared at me with his big beautiful eyes like he understood how much I loved him.

I never could understand how hard it would be to make the decision to let one of your most beloved best friends go.  To some it may seem silly to cry over a dog, but of course to me he was always more than that.  He meant something different to everyone in the family.  He was my dad’s close companion after his heart attack.  He was my mom’s closest thing to a grandchild.  He was my brother’s best friend.  He was Chris’ friend and protector.  He was such a special guy and I hated watching him suffer.  We had been through a lot throughout his life.  We survived his hip injury as a puppy, his broken toe and subsequent toe removal, his seizures and prostate issues, and as recently as a month ago his bloat and surgery.  He had always pulled through, but this time was different, there was no pulling through this one.

On our last full day together we did some of his favorite things.  We went for a walk and then spent some quality time with Lindy.  We all spent some time with him and gave him extra love.  I’ll always love my special guy and he cannot be replaced.  We’re still adjusting to not having him around, still stepping around him, expecting him to meet us at the door, and waiting for him to join us in the bedroom.

Puppy, we miss you, love you, and we’re waiting for you to come home.

Our last full day together.

His last Lindy date.

My gorgeous guy about 2 years ago.

Here’s our Ruckus SLIDESHOW
Music: Count on Me by Bruno Mars

We also want to thank the wonderful staff at VCA Lakewood for always taking care of Ruckus when he came in and really showing how much you care.  We especially want to thank Dr. Balsam and Dr. Smith for doing a wonderful job with Ruckus.  After his last surgery Dr. Smith made sure to call us every other week or so to see how Ruckus was doing.  He was there with us until the end and it means so much to us all that he did for him.


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